I am

Craving change in my life!

whayhey

I had some right fucked up dreams last night. Very disturbing and just messed up. Dont want to go into detail though, its not stuff that needs to be shared with the world. I was in such a bad mood last night, and nothing seems to be changing it. Every little thing that keeps hapening keeps putting me in a worse mood. People being wankers, nothings going my way, even just walking to my mates house last night to get drunk I was getting angry at a bunch of 17year olds wearing stupid fucking neon green and pink tutus and legwarmers. Arrrrgg. What fucking morons. Does my nut in. MY NUT DAGNABIT. Seriously its either me, or everyone else. Im curently opting for everyone else. I really cant stand people.
Another thing, day time TV sucks.

booo

My dog died today. Got put down. Very sad :(
Work felt like it was never going to end today, glad to be home. Need to tidy, but dont want to. Going to just sit on my sofa and mope. Sulky sulky mope mope sulk.
Bought a lottery ticket today after work, first in ages. I beter win otherwise, yeh well nothing. Blah.
The 3 musketeers is on, I love the entire cast, Tim Curry, Kiefer Sutherland, Oliver Platt. Awsome.

I want my dog back.

Saturday Night

woooooooo
ok, so my plan for not drinking is not going to plan tonight. Thats ok though. Its Saturday night after all! I can still be as anti-social as I want all week... and I will be. But tonight, its moorings time!! Oh yeah!
The parent trap just came on, yay, love that film! Except its not the amazing original, its the Lyndsay Lohan one. Not so amazing, but still good. OMG, I just remembered Race to Witch Mountian, that film kicked ass!

Friday Night

Sorted out my finances today (as in seeing how skint I am and how I can afford to do nothing for the rest of forever!)
Which suits me fine, its about time I got back to being the unsociable sod I used to be. Too many people in town. Theres not even any variety, its all the same. Thats the problem with Aberdeen, its far too small. As far as places to go on a friday night, lets see, there is... oh yeah thats right! 2 choices! 2 freakin choices for a friday night (rock/metal) that is. Nowhere even plays punk/rockabilly music. Your lucky if you get a song or 2 during the night but thats it. Aberdeen is Lame!
Anyway, enough complaining. Concentrate on the good things in life!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Oh wait there is nothing.
Giving up boozing for a while, this is my second day so far! go me! thats good right! geting exclamation crazy here! !!!!

Feeling goood!!!

Too much indulgence of boozing and enough is enough!
I just did 40mins aerobics and abs on my mighty davina dvd! I am soo cool.
Feel great though and in the mood, so Im downloading some free yoga videos I found online http://www.yogadownload.com/ most of them you have to pay for, but theres a bunch of different 20min sessions you can download for free! Im excited. Cant wait for the ice and snow to go away so I can start running again. Might enter myself in somthing thats longer than the race for life 5k. (and show up on time, as i was a little late for the race being drunk the night before) Damn I need to stop drinking.

what to do...

Being very hungover today and not really remembering much from last night I am having a day of reflection as I often do. Im fed up with how things are going in my life. I am achieving nothing and effectivly just wasting time. Having no prospects in life is not a good thing. I cant decide if I want to go back to school or just get another job. If I go back to school then I have no idea what I would study as I just have no idea what I want to do with my life. I would also have to pay for my first year of tuition which I really cant afford to do! Also, if I was to get another job, what would I be looking for? More retail? I think I would kill myself if I had to work in an office. Bar work perhaps, am I going to end up doing dead end jobs for my whole life? But then, do I even want a career? FUCK SAKE

ooocha boys

flat tidy
lots of booze ready
party time soon
my head hurts
arsed
will force myself to have fun

hurrah

Went to spazda this morning, got some boozey goodness for my party tomorrow night. Cant wait. Drink up me hearties yo ho. I can honestly say on a friday night, thats the only time I have left the flat today. Cool girl I am. Sisters off to Glasgow today see some friends, and one of my friends who lives in glasgow isnt coming up for my birthday, after she said she would. It makes me a sad panda.
Just going to chil and watch some films tonight. Oceans 12 has just come on, I vaguely remember seeing this years ago. Yet I dont remember it. Dont remember the first one either, nevermind.
Oh i got my Ipod for my birthday, got some good speakers to go along with it too. Yay. Only thing is I-Tunes is the devil. Its satin in software. I hate it Hate it HATE IT!!! But it has to be done. Slowly, painfully I will eventualy get all my music uploaded on it.

Excitement

Oh I wonder, is this what life has come to when I get excited about an e-voucher for Sainsburrys, then when it decides not to work write an e-mail of complaint. I think I just turned into my parents. Oh God. Also another lameity, my tickely cough turned into a dripping nose full on head cold. Along with my gammy bruised knees I will not let it ruin my party, and Ii plan to have pictures a plenty.
On a lighter note, im dying my hair. That allways cheers me up. yay. Although im kina bored today, just seem to be sitting around doing nothing. I may get productive and paint my walls, and try to unpack some of my stuff, as its stil in boxes under my bed. I say this, chances are though, I wont.

ice ice ice, snow snow snow, sure it looks nice, but i want some sun.
Saw that new vampire film today, cant even remember what it was called, but it was good apart from the over dramatised excentric ending along with a good slice of cheese. Not to mention it was too long and I was just wanting it to finish. Going to do some online shopping for my party, munchiemunch and booozybooze omnomnom. Ive got a £10 e-voucher for sainsburrys because last time I did and order it was slightly late. 15mins tops, well impressed.
COLD FLAT HEAT THE FUCK UP!!!
ahh got a tickely cough too, just came on and i dont like it

my poor knees

Savage ice outside, its just a sheet of death. Slipped on my way to work this morn and my knees slammed onto thick iced concrete. As I sat slouched in pain on the street I manned up and arose to continue to plodge onto work, continuing with a limp that is. Both of my knees are purple/blue and so swolen they look like they have developed elephantitis. SEXY. As sore as they are now, I know that after a good 8 hours sleep they will be so stiff I wont be able to walk (memories of 3 weeks off work after fucking my knees from skating- not cool) although I do have tomorrow off. My Birthday Party is on Sat, I hope the knees are normal for then. Although its looking doubtful, very doubtful. At least I have a pretty dress to wear.

Also, Preminition sucks. Sandra Bollocks should be steaked through the heart.

New Years Resolutions

Another New Year, just another day, but yet again like everyone else I shall make some pointless resolution's that I probably wont end up keeping, because thats what people seem to do.
No1. keep a diary (in this case, a blog)
No2. save money so I can run away from Aberdeen
No3. get fit/ lose weight (shock horror, how many girls do u think make this resolution)
No4. be less of a dick (hmm, i dont really know how well this will work, as this whole blog will probably be a big complaint-fest)
No5. Learn new things (pointless or otherwise)